#I DON’T EVEN WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT #HE CAN’T EVEN SHARE THIS #he can’t even share the weight of his brother’s murder #he’s STILL IN HIS BURNING HEART ARMOR #she wants to peel it off him and step inside and he won’t let her #because this; this relationship with renly he can have #in his own twisted way he can reclaim something of the relationship they lost when they went to war #the grief and the guilt— he can carry that with him and he can carry it alone and that can be renly for him#he’s killed all the parts of renly he hated he doesn’t have to look at him anymore and see all the things he’s been denied #that a living renly would taunt him with #he can think of him as the five year old he kept alive for a year on dog meat and prayer #now that he’s murdered renly— murdered; done it himself— he can finally love him #’i did love him davos; i know that now’ #he couldn’t before because live breathing renly he could never love #and he doesn’t want to share it with her because this is steffon and cassana and robert and cressen #and all the love he never got in the world #this is the shadow of the family who should have loved him #who did love him (once) #and he’s too selfish to let her have any of that #even the guilt of it